Monday, July 24, 2006
an hour ago,,,, weird thing happened...
someone named mia, from channel 59 of sky cable or home cable called up ...and i was the one who answered the phone
satin: hello...mia: hello good afternoon po, ako pa si mia ng channel 59... gusto ko lang po sabihin na ipagdadasal ko ho kayo.. okay lang po ba?satin: ha... uhmmm.... okeimia: ano po bang pangalan niyo para isasama namen ang pangalan niyo sa dasal naminsatin: patricia... patricia villanuevamia: ah miss patricia... una po, gusto ko lang po sabihin sa inyo na hindi aksidente na kayo ang nakasagot ng telepono ngayon. lahat ay may rason,,, may plano ang Panginoon para sa inyo.. sabi nga sa Jeremiah 29.......... (hindi ko na matandaan sinabi niya)satin: okeimia: ayan bago po tayo magdasal, meron po ba kayong mga prayer requestssatin: ah wala namanmia: ganun po ba,, o sige po, sabayan niyo po ako... Panginoon...........satin: Panginoon......................mia: bago po natin ibaba ang telepono, ipagdadasal ko po muna kayo.... (said her prayer for me)mia: ayan salamat po miss patricia, sana po maging maayos ang araw niyo ngayon.... blah blah
woah!!!!!!!! i was shocked!!!!!!!! nakakagulat!!!! lageng ako nalang ha!!!! i dont know,,, is this a sign?!?!? sooper bad na ba ko?!?!? ...or i have some calling?!?!? hahahaha ...before i was home alone and there was a late 50s na lady na kumatok sa gate,, then she handed me an oblong shaped na ceramic with the image of our lady of perpetual help,,, then i thought she was selling it to me, so i said "ay hindi po" ...then she said,, "hindi,, para sayo yan,,, para sa pamilya mo..." then i said "ok thank you po" ...then she left na... and i went in,,,,,, weird e noh?!?!?!
di ko sure toh ha!!! ...we dont have classes today so i might start my "special project" ..hahahahaha
last saturday, july 22,,,, sky's reggae night!!! soo funny!!!! :D check http://iamsatin.multiply.com
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Sunday, July 23, 2006
new song uploaded for my friendster account
smile by tamia
Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned
Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend love
Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, lala, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then i
Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me,and so i go around with my head
Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing
Me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the life that i
Would choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, lala, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la la la, lalala, la la, la la, lala, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, lala, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la-la la la, lalala, la la, la la,la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa
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Friday, July 21, 2006
CONGRATZ AC ATHLETES!!!!!
TODAY, we had our 'fun run',,, fun run,, running 6 km for 41 minutes... and if you finish it within 41 minutes you'll be a candidate for scholarship... this was for ac athletes....
this was my first time to run,, last year was cancelled kase due to heavy rains...
didnt make it in 41 minutes,,, it took me 46 minutes instead,, but its all good... proved something!!! didnt expect na i can do it,, kala ko it will take me an hour to finish that... hello?!?! knowing me,, always known for being "mahinhin" and all.... :D feels good!!! ..i feel happy maski nakakapagod ng todo!!!!
and what made me feel alot more happier (more happier!?!?) hahahaha ...after that exhausting run,,, im sweating and all,,, i saw CHAMP!!!!!! yes as in CHAMP LUI PIO ...because there's a concert e.... didnt think twice,,, i approached him and.....
satin: hi! pwede pa-picture?!?!champ: sure... (lapit ako,, inakbayan ako ...then mejo napa back off ako sa kanya)satin: ay mapawis ako (kakatapos ko lang run nito ha!!)champ: ok lang! :)(click!!! maikki took our pic) ..then mejo naglalakad na kami goin gatechamp: wow athlete!!! thats nice...satin: thanks :Dchamp: so how was the run?!satin: ok lang! :Dchamp: you'll watch later???!?satin: yes i will!! :Dchamp: okei see you! :D
oh my oh my!!! mababaw but!!!! crush ko talaga!!! and "the day you said goodnight" ...soo memorable!!!!! haaayyyyy
freaking happy!!! now my legs are starting to hurt....
newei... we watched the concert,,,, its free c/o of MTVthe bands were:~hale~up dharma down~urbandub~sandwich~rivermaya..yan na ata.. i cant remember na e!!!
eion.....
pic namen..look at me,,, sweating like a pig!!!! :D sooper smile e!!!! dont care sa 46 minutes na bigla ...ako na maliit!!!! ...he's 5'10 naman kase!!!!
please visit http://iamsatin.multiply.com
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
neve's 18th birthday party!!!
when: 07.15.06 ... 6 pm onwards
where: krocodile grill, shangrila
FUN FUN FUN!!!!! ..i had a great time!!! no joke!!!! na-miss ko high school friends!!! ..MOreos plus gelli!!!! haaayyyyy..... high school friends are way different talaga....
I MISS ALL OF YOU!!!!! ..kitakits ulet sa saturday, sky's party!!! :D
I MISS YOU TWIN!!!!! ....thank god kahit papano we had some bonding moments...
..frozen margarita and red horse!! oh yeah!!! :D...
THANKS FOR INVITING ME NEVE!!!! LOVE YOU SOO!!!! MMMWWWAAAHHHHH
pictures at http://iamsatin.multiply.com
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Thursday, July 13, 2006
100% sad.... :'c
You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind.
I made the choice to finally go because I cant stand this pain. Its time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again. - Brandy
Being strong sometimes means being able to let go.
As you left and said your good-byes, you forgot to tell my heart how to live without you.
Good-byes make you think. They make you realize what youve had, what youve lost and what youve taken for granted.
How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to.
I learned to laugh, I learned to cry, but will I ever learn to say goodbye?
Ive learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures can never replace being there, memories forget the hard times, words can never replace feelings, and heroes often go unsung.
Saying goodbye isnt the hard part, its what we leave behind thats tough.
Why are the words goodbye, Im sorry and I love you, so easily pronounced, but so hard to say?
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love to find out if there is really something there. Sometimes you have to let go of someone to see if theres anything there to hold on to.
Sometimes you wont let go of love. More times love wont let go of you.
There is a time for departure even when there is no certain place to go.
Maybe some people just arent meant to be in our lives forever. Maybe some people are just passing through. Its like some people just come through our lives to bring us something: a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn, and thats why theyre here... youll have that gift forever. - The Gift
Dont want to leave, but we both know sometimes its better to go. Somehow I know we will meet again. Not sure quite where and I dont know just when. Youre in my heart, so until then... wanna smile, wanna cry, saying good-bye. - Muppets Take Manhattan
I dont want to wake up and realize what I was dreaming was right in front of my shut eyes. I dont want to stop saying hellos for fear of saying good-byes
The only true painful good-byes are the ones that are never said and never explained.
Just when you thought you had it all, it all falls apart.
We never know the worth of water til the well is dry.~English Proverb
It is said that you dont know what you have until its gone. But, it is also true that you dont know what you have been missing until it arrives!
Our lives improve only when we take chances and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.~Walter Anderson
There are many things in life, am I one of them??
If You really love someone are u positive u want them to love u back?
Its one thing to love someone but its another to have them love u back.
I cry for u, Y?
I miss u, Y?
I love u, Y?
Y care so much for someone who doesnt care about me?!?!
I wish i were a little girl again, because skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
It took me by surprise when I saw you standing there.
Close enough to touch, breathing the same air.
You asked me how Ive been, I guess thats when I smiled and said just fine.
But I was lying.
What i really meant to say is Im dying here inside.
I miss you more each day.
Theres not a night I havnt cried.
Baby heres the truth, Im still in love with you.
And thats what I really meant to say.
They say its not healthy to cry over a guy.
but what if you cant help it and end up crying all day?
they say its not healthy to wait for a guy.
but what if you truely feel you need them?
they say its not healthy to love someone so much.
and if all this is how i feel for you.....
then i might as well die cuz im not healthy anyway.
but then ill never know if you feel it too.
i guess i wont know till you admit me the truth.
I can hear my heart as I see you and I try to smile so you wouldnt know that Im missing you, but no matter how hard I try; I can still feel the pain because without you things will never be the same.
Sometimes we need to be hurt in order to grow.
We must fail in order to know.
We must lose in order to gain.
Some lessons are learned best through pain.
Should I smile because we are friends, or cry because thats all we will ever be?
The more you suffer the more it shows you really care. ~Offspring
Letting go isnt about giving up. Its about accepting that there are things that cannot be.
Letting go is when love hurts the most.
Same old story that everybody knows, its one heart holding on, one heart letting go.
You hug him good-bye like its nothing... while all you want to do is hold on forever...but you let go, smile and walk away... then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same... because try as you might you cant make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free... and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all.
I always knew how to smile just so that they thought I wasnt crying on the inside. I was ready to drown in the tears I hide, hanging on to a thread of hope so foreign to me that I sometimes doubted it even existed. The damage has been done, Im sick of the tears. Im giving up now but still... I love you.
Its easy to let go when holding on hurts so bad.
We had said good-bye so many times before, but somehow our paths always managed to cross and we ended up in each others arms. But now when we said this good-bye I have this feeling that I will never see you again. And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to lead our own separate lives. And I honestly dont wanna cross your path in the future cause I dont want all these feelings to come back and have to try to get over all over again.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out that it wasnt meant to be and you just have to let go..
Its really painful to say goodbye to someone that you dont want to let go, but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should.
To let go isnt to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesnt leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isnt about winning or losing. Its not about pride and its not about how you appear, and its not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesnt leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. Its not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isnt about loss and its not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on.It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. Its about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free. (~bullshit!!!! so easy to say these things,,, but so difficult to put these into action!!!!!~)
The pain is just too strong right now and the tears are still lingering on my face. Thats why I think it is best that I just let go.
How do you prepare a heart to be broken, or dreams to fall through? How do you let go of a miracle who means everything to you? How do you walk away, with the tears in your eyes.... letting go isnt easy...you just pray you can survive.
You smile when you feel like crying, you act like you are okay, when you are falling apart inside and you let it go. You move on, because theres nothing else you can do.
How can I get you to see that Im falling apart since youve been gone? I could never be sure I could ever let go your love is much too strong. There are some things that I guess Ill never know, when you love someone you gotta learn to let them go...
You never stop loving someone. Its more of just learning to deal with the pain of not having them anymore.
When you lose someone you love, you never get over it. You just get used to it.
they are starting to fall again,,, i thought im ok,,, i thought they wont fall from my eyes anymore,,, but im wrong,,, when toh magsstop?!?!? :'c
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
when will i stop hoping, wishing, and dreaming?!?!? :'c
im starting to feel the things i felt last May again... i know ive already,,, somehow recovered from that,,,, if last May and June 100% sad ako,,, now mga 91% nalang.. but im going back to 100% again.. :c
they always tell me that i should accept and face the reality... but how can i do that?!?!?!?
oh my god!! nakakadepress un.. changed almost everything!!! :c ....maybe he's looking for ways to avoid me.....
i dont know .. :'c
i feel down.....
ayoko na dito.... i wanna go somewhere far....
wish i can turn back time,,, and be a kid again,,, no worries, no problems, no heartaches.... :c
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
july 7, 06 to july 8, 06 - sleep over sa unit ni kai... CRUISER NIGHT!!!!!-vodka cruiser original-vodka cruiser blueberry-vodka cruisers rasberry-vodka mudshake capuccino-3/4 baby grand matador-coke light
july 8, 06 - morning around 10 plus am, swimming sa penthouse, ....lunch time, i left the unit and went to powerplant.. lunch with ate tm, shobe, and papa- night = tito rudy's bday celebration... went to tracy's house... NAKAKABITIN!!!! coz mom told me to go home,,, walang kasama kase si sam sa house--absolute vodka naman dito!!!!! ..TRACY BITIN TALAGA!!!! asar!!!
today, july 9, 06
2 months!!!!!! :c ....morning....jog with parents .... afternoon, went to gold's gym for yoga!!! nabanat mga veins ko!!!! hindi ko sure!! ..i saw marc nelson there working out,, oh my!!! gwapo!!! hehehehehehe
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Friday, July 07, 2006
i wont go home later,,, uwi ako sa ibang house!! :D hahahaha ....ill be staying with kai for tonight!!! exciting!!! ..and my bag?!!??!? sooo big!!!! i look like someone who ran away from home!!! ..no joke!!!! sooper puno badminton bag ko plus may semi small bag pa ko!!! goodluck sken!!! and i still have class pa ha!!! so dala dala ko un!!!
more quotes.... (kuya!!!! :c walalang... i feel the same... tsk!!!)
VERY SAD (wront sent message / quote from ate mina): bakit ganun?!!? kahit anong iwas mo pigilin ang iyong nararamdaman siya parin,,, kahit minsan nagmumuka ka ng tanga sa kakahintay kung kailan ba siya magttxt or tatawag! ..pero pag andyan na hindi mo alam kung magiging masaya ka na ng tuluyan o aasa lang sa wala... haayyy... bakit ba ganun ang pagmamahal?!?!? ganito ba talaga!?!?!?
I LIKE THIS QUOTE!! ..from twin: if you look inside a girl's heart and see how much she cries you'll find secrets, promises, and lies...but what you'll see most is how hard she tries to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.. :c
sobrang tama!!!! hmmm.... i still feel sad,,,,,, :c ..but im trying to look happy..
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
busy busy busy.... dame ko ginagawa and dami rin ng gagawin.... in a month, midterms na!!! time flies!!! haaayyyy.... but even though im so busy,,, im enjoying naman!!! :D
**JULY 5, 2006**
TODAY.....
first meeting with the new members of the team.. oh my god!!! di ko sure sa mga na-encounter ko!!!! ..hmmm.... i wont narrate it kase,, basta!!!! i'm freaking tired!!! 2 weeks of no running = hindi na ko makatakbo na matagal ngayon :c ..damn!!!!
ate pallas told me im gaining weight daw!! ooohhhh my!!! darn darn!!!
last night, i cant sleep na naman, past 2 na ko naka sleep then woke up at 7 am,, for me not to waste my time,,, i made my oralcom homework,,, making an affirmation for myself using my name... well,,, i was in the mood to make things like that so i put some designs on it.. hahahahaha aksyon e!!!! ...its not required naman talaga,,,, actually we can write it on a 1/4 sheet of pad nga e!!! :D
hindi pa dry un glue
after...
**JULY 2, 2006**
SUNDAY
i was out almost the whole day... watched kimoni tournament with 'kuya' mike and kai and coach mike's friends in olympic badminton, libis.... nice nice!! galing e!!!! lalang... then went to metro walk after.... reached home at past 11 pm.... i sooper enjoyed the day!!!! :D
THANK YOU!!!!!!!
quotes for myself
**katangahan bang lumapit ka kahit umiiwas na siya? ...magpapansin kahit balewala niya lang? ...maghintay kahit sa wala? ...kaw ba ang tanga dahil umaasa pa? ..o siya,,, na di makaunawang sobrang mahal mo siya?! :c
**you wanna know what really sucks!?!?!?? ...its when you want to ask one simple question... but, your heart is way too scared of the answer... :c (sooper tama!)
**ITS HARD TO LOVE SOMEONE WHO CAN NEVER BE YOURS... TIME WOULD GIVE YOU: CHANCES TO TALK TO ,, CHANCES TO BE TOGETHER ,, CHANCES TO SHARE ,, SEE HOW IT HURTS!??!? ..YOU ONLY HAVE CHANCES .... JUST FREAKIN CHANCES!!! :c (100% true)
I'll Be Over You - Toto
Some people lives their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people's destiny
Passes by
There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
That's how our love must be
Don't ask why
It takes some time God knows how long
I know that I can forget you
CHORUS:
As soon as my heart stops breakin'
Anticipatin'
As soon as forever is through
I'll be over you
Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothin' stays the same
There were the nights Holdin' you close
Someday I'll try to forget them
CHORUS
[bridge]
As soon as my heart stops breakin'
Anticipatin'
Someday I'll be over you
As soon as my heart stops breakin'
Anticipatin'
Someday I'll be over you
As soon as my heart...
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
JULY 01, 06EXECOM ASSEMBLY AT UA&P-junior philippine economics society-
schools that were present:**assumption college, san lorenzo, makati city-international business and economincs society (IBES) ..my org**the ateneo-ateneo economics association-admu management economics organization (meco)**central luzon state university-central luzon state university economics society**de lasalle university, manila-dlsu economic organization**colegio de san juan de letran-colegio de san juan de letran oikonomos letran**PUP-PUP economics research society**san beda college-san beda economics society**UA&P-UA&P business economics association** UP-up economics society-up economics towards consciousness-up organization of business economics majors-up agricultural economics society-uplb economics society**USC-usc carolinian economics society**UST-ust arts and letters economics society-ust economics society
long assembly coz of the presentations...
we were in corporate attire!!! aliw e!! hahahahaha
corporate...
franz and i... photo opportunity venue?!?!? wash room!!! hahahahah**complete set of pictures at http://iamsatin.multiply.com
JUNE 30, 2006 - im starting to feel sad again :c ...haaayyy... nakakadepress... frustrated!!!!!
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