Tuesday, April 04, 2006
APRIL 4, 2006 ...best time ever?!??!?! (sarcastic mode)
hmm.... i went to glorietta kase meet kame ni tracy.... then we decided to watch ice age 2.... comedy flick but i didnt enjoy it!!!! why?!?!? how can i enjoy it e i was thinking a lot of things!!!!?!!!! :c ...natawa lang ako dun sa part ng fire king... tapos it has a love story kase, e sakto ndi ko nacontrol i cried coz of some text message.. tapos naisip ko baka isipin ng mga tao sa likod and side ko, i was crying coz of the movie! hahahaha ...inaaliw ko nalang sarili ko e!!! ...tracy kept on saying, "smile ka nalang sat!! ..smile lang" ...so i did smile... we even had our pictures!!! ...in glorietta, i was okay, im doing okay, i smiled alot, pretending im happy, pretending im not hurt, pretending everything is okay... as in parang kayang kaya ko! maybe because im still in shock..
but... when i went home, i went straight sa room, turned on the aircon, turned off the lights and forced myself to sleep... i even wrote a note sa may door namen which says "im sleeping. hindi na ko dinner -satin" but i woke up at 8 pm! sakto they were having dinner, e i havent eaten anything yet so mejo gutom narin ako, so nag eat nlang din ako.... actually not exactly 8 pm un, mga 7:30 siguro...then pagka gising ko... dun na nagstart lahat... i felt bad na tlga!! as in!!! i was just staring at the ceiling and kept on txting tracy... during that time nag sink in lahat! dun ko lang tlga nafeel, naisip un nangyare... so i started to have a teary eye....
after dinner, im alone in the room, writing sa journal ko... cant help not to cry... i felt soo sad... soo bad... soo confuse... soo hurt :c
pictures namen....
rustan's cr ...the girl was looking at me... teary eye kase
...soo hard to pretend that you're happy when you're not :c
..a heartache can be as loud as a bomb exploding and as quiet as a feather falling and it is painful coz nobody hears it but you... hating me wont make you pretty...| 11:22 PM