Tuesday, October 18, 2005
IM FREAKING BORED!!! DARN IT!!! grabe!! as in la talaga ko magawa!!!! fuckshit!!! ...thank goodness ate essa texted me last night and we'll have our training tom!!! ...atlast i can play!!! ..hmm.. on october 28, we'll have our team building in matabungkay but that's tentative pa... and im not sure if my mom and dad will allow me... but i already told my mom about it, sabi niya, siguro my dad will allow me if its not overnight.... cornydoodle!!!! pero ok lang!!! ;D
12:09 noon = just soundtripping!!!! and blogging!!! and checking my accounts!!! and... la na... grabe 2 days na kami hindi talk,, even text!!! siguro nakausap ko lang siya for about 3 to 5 minutes tapos un na!! asar un sun naccut agad e!! ...newei last night, i dont know.. i felt weird again!!! =( ..pero ganun e! hmm.... again, im listening to magic 89.9 ...nagsawa na kase ko sa cds ko... lean back, lean back!! alalang...the songs are nice na naman!!! =) hehehehe buti naman! ..newei.. what will i say pa ba?!!?? cant think of anything... tuesday na, then wednesday, then thursday then friday, class cards!!!! im nervous na!! as in!!! shit toh!!! hala... sana naman i wont get any 2.5 although passing un pero no parin!!! tsk!
12:15 noon = never leave you by lumidee!!! "if you want me to stay, ill never leave..." ...yesterday katext ko si ate mina, tapos walalng.. kwento kwento then dapat pala... i mean, she was planning to play yesterday coz she was badtrip e kaso nagka something! sayang!!! eion... next week. oct 25, it will be my enrollment...
la talaga ko magawa, what will happen to me kaya next sem?!? ...ay naku!! ....i really wanna play!!! i want to have another training! training outside the school, like an additional training pero how?!?!? haayyy....
12:23 noon = being away from your friends really contributes a major difference!!! lalang i just noticed that... hello?!? during the highschool and elem days nga, when you're not in the same class, you tend to have a gap na agad and have another new set of friends and sometimes you just forget about the other old friends... alalng.. =( i feel sad lang... i dont like this feeling, na ewan ko... a lot of things are rushing in my mind... maybe this is because of last night.. i was quite surprise when that thing was being mentioned... i guess when you're really close with someone you cant help not to share somehting, share stories about other people, even the most mababaw part ng life nila makkwento mo... which sometimes makes me think, "do you need to tell them that?!?" ...but what can i do!? its their choice, right?!?!
12:33 noon = last night, i was thinking, and i realized that i have many grudges... no, not really grudges, basta heartaches... i dont know... most of the times, when people found out that til now im still not talking to someone their initial reactions was "huh talaga?!? hanggang ngayon?!?!" ...walalng... parang they were so surprised na til now hindi ko kinakausap un mga un! ...yeah i admit ang tagal na nun, 1 year ago pero what can i do!?! yoko kausapin e! ...bad noh?!!? well, that's the real me... i feel paranoid... =( feeling ko may hindi ok... tsk!
tsk tsk! ...that's why i hate it when im not doing anything, when i just stay at home, listen to radio, dami ko naiisip!!! =(
12:45 noon = tracy texted me this ..."imagine im ur bestfriend and we planned to have a dinner with your special someone in ur birthday. In your special day, you're so excited and i was the first to come in your house... we're so happy and we're chatting while waiting for your special someone.. it was 12 midnight then and the power went out.. the phone rang and i told you to answer it while im looking for a candle... when you answer the phone, your special someone told you that i was in the hospital and was dead.. you saw me smiling at you, holding a candle and say: "i will miss you forever, ...happy birthday!" ....=darn!! freaky na sad!!! nasad ako lalo! =(
ill end this na nga... ill write nalang sa journal ko... =(
til here...
hating me wont make you pretty...| 1:05 PM